Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Los Quatro Dientes

I watched my girlfriend get four wisdom teeth pulled today without general anesthesia. It was pretty punk rock.


She did of course have lots of Novocaine shots and nitrous oxide, but was completely awake and aware for the process. She reported that, from this and past dental experiences, the nitrous doesn't have much of an effect (which wasn't the case when I had nitrous for a root canal). She was very nervous about the procedure beforehand -- understandably.

When you're with someone for any length of time, or even, potentially, a short amount of time, there's the inevitability of bodily events. When we lived together in Oakland, CA, I was showering once when I heard her make a godawful scream in the kitchen and ran out, wet and naked, to find that she'd lacerated her finger accidentally pretty deeply with a pulse-blender that had retained some latent energy. Although I was able to photograph her gory wound, dress it and reduce the bleeding, and drive her to the ER, I was overcome by squeamishness once they got her prepped for stitches, so had to wait in the waiting room while they patched her up. Before the wisdom teeth removal -- something she just hadn't done at the usual time people do it (late teens/early 20s when still on parents' insurance) and then had put off for years and years, despite pain -- I'd wondered if my squeamishness would rise up when being her support person at the extraction. It's always a little embarrassing.

Oddly, I wasn't squeamish at all. It's of course difficult to see someone you care about in distress or pain, but I think having been through two childbirths of two different baby mamas was good preparation. I was able to watch the dentist draw from his tray of tools (some very simple, almost medieval-looking), syringes, and gauze with a kind of naturalist's detachment, while also wincing a few times when the gf cried out at one point, or a distinct tooth-cracking sound filled the air (twice). But it was also very amazing to see the dentist's hand come away with his glorified pliers and a gleaming, bloody tooth was placed gently on the tray. She did all four teeth in one sitting. Due to insurance not covering it and the fact that her teeth were small and not bony/impacted, they had decided on the awake approach. She put on some Britney Spears (!) in her earbuds and powered through it, like I had powered through a root canal with nitrous, Novocaine, and Queens of the Stone Age's Songs for the Deaf -- but that was only one tooth.

I had brought a book to read -- physical anthropologist Tim D. White's Prehistoric Cannibalism, which raised a few eyebrows in the dentist's office -- but wasn't able to focus on it as they methodically removed the top wisdom teeth (fairly easily) and then the lower ones (a bit more of a struggle). After the procedure they put all the teeth, wrapped in gauze, in a tiny white envelope like something the Smurfs would send letters in. I told the gf I was impressed, and took her to the supermarket to get post-op comfort stuff. Her mouth was full of blood as she spit some out in the supermarket parking lot. Took her back home, got her settled, and she fell into a deep and well-deserved sleep. 

Monday, November 13, 2017

A Gainesville Story: a Harry Crews Appreciation


This is about Harry Crews, the South Georgia-born writer whose career peaked in the 1970s and who is known as the grandaddy of grit lit (Southern literature about ordinary, working-class people written by those very same people). 

This is Part One of a multi-part series about eventually moving from California to Crews' birth state, getting inspired by the 2016 biography (the first) about Crews -- Ted Geltner's Blood, Bone, and Marrow, making pilgrimages to Gainesville, Florida, and Athens, Georgia, and more. 

I'd like to note that in 2004 I wrote curricula for a class I was gonna teach in Contemporary Southern Literature for a junior college, featuring Crews, William Gay, Tom Franklin, Larry Brown, and Chris Offutt. Brown died suddenly while I was still finalizing the class (I heard about it from Tom Franklin), and both Gay and Crews died in 2012 (one month apart). While I was (and still am) a big fan of grit lit in general at that time, and I like all those writers a lot, Crews has always especially spoken to/resonated with me, and I think he and I share a similar wiring in how we view the world. When I hear him write about "the black twirlies and free-floating anxiety" I know exactly what that feels like, and he and I have shared similar battles with things. I imagine I will reach a saturation point with my Crews obsession, so I am interested in the future in doing some archival work around Gay and Brown. It's kinda fun, being a detective and trying to understand someone's life via what they left behind, who they touched, and what, if anything, their experience as sentient beings amounted to.

Part One.

A Gainesville Story: a Harry Crews Appreciation


I sat in the darkness of my motel room and thought about the darkness in, and of, my life. 

The motel room was in Gainesville, Florida, where I’d come for a few reasons. I’d always wanted to come to Gainesville for its punk scene and its quality of being an archetypal college town in the Deep South, the type of place I’d wanted to visit or live since I was in my twenties. I’d been living in Atlanta, and Gainesville kept calling me to her. It was also the home of my favorite writer, Harry Crews, who set many of his books in the town and, to my amazement, gave his home address publicly in a 1973 book he wrote. It was the fictional protagonist’s address, but I was astonished he was just so open about it. And lastly, I wasn’t getting along with the girlfriend in Atlanta, I had a little bit of money, so via the always-interesting Greyhound and the cheap, depressing motel room, I found myself in town. 

I was tired upon arrival because I walk everywhere and had been carrying not one but two heavy backpacks (after Gainesville I had to take another Greyhound up north for a funeral), but it was exciting to be in Gainesville, so my first order of business was going straight to Lillian’s Music Store, a favorite haunt of Harry’s when he was alive.

It felt great when I sidled up to a barstool and rested my arms on a battleworn bar where Harry had sat. When we have idols and people we are fans of, we tend to see them as larger than life, but when you meet them or see where they lived, you see they are people just like anyone. The world becomes smaller somehow, more accessible. I drank a Whiskey Sour in honor of Harry, who I’d read liked that drink because that way he could get some fruit in his diet. The drink arrived fruitless and incredibly strong, but it felt great after the rattling vibrations and general grunginess of Greyhound and then a walk in Gainesville heat and sun from the station to the motel, wearing pants and two socks on one foot so I didn’t get a blister from my cowboy boot. (At one point, walking from Greyhound to motel, I felt like I might pass out or need to rest in the shade of a tree, but I soldiered on, checked in, and I tell you, nothing tasted better than a cold can of iced tea followed by a grape soda bought for 75 cents each from a moody vending machine, and then a dip in the debris-strewn, semi-neglected pool. The chlorine killed the bus bugs and the swim gave me a second wind.)

I’d planned to see some of Harry’s haunts, at least the ones that still existed, his home, and maybe the building he taught in at the University of Florida when he was alive. Harry’s official biographer’s publicist had called me a “Harry Crews superfan,” and I guess I was. My mom, in a bit of parenting that was perhaps questionable but ultimately life-changing, got me a Crews book, Karate is a Thing of the Spirit, when I was all of maybe eight or ten years old, knowing I liked martial arts at the time and after she read the first few pages on a whim in a bookstore. That particular book has very adult things going on in it, such as a woman raping a wounded man, two gay men raping the same man, an attempted abortion via a very unique way of terminating a pregnancy, a pedophile karate student, and other acts of sex and violence. Hardly the best stuff for a young, sensitive kid, but my mom trusted my maturity and in those days we were free-range children. I loved to read and even then I knew I was reading something from a very talented, very unique, singular author who spoke with an honesty and perspective that resonated with and impressed me. My love affair with Southern writers began early, and I still think as many do that there is something particularly above average about Southern storytellers, a grittiness, candor, and way of forming narrative that produces some of the world’s best writers. Crews was the granddaddy of “grit lit” and as an adult I had things in common with him: generalized anxiety, a dislike of Sundays, a fondness for drink, and a love of the female form. I had been talking with Crews’ biographer about the possibility of getting a posthumous book by Crews called Bone Grinder to see the light of day, which would feel like more of an accomplishment, if I helped in some small way, than even getting my own novel manuscript, The World According to Geek, published. To be a Crews superfan it seemed required I visit Gainesville. 

 

 Lillian's Music Store: not a music store (neither instrument nor record) but a fantastic, New Orleans-style bar Harry logged serious time at.

Lillian’s was a cool, New Orleans-style bar, dimly-lit and smelling of time and oldness, with a 13-foot stuffed alligator, an alligator head with bead necklaces in its mouth among the bottles, and overhead fans. I had experienced a lot of death lately and was having drinks for different departed people I’d known or admired: a best friend (cancer), my girlfriend’s close friend (cancer), two bassists (Grandaddy and Black Flag, stroke and cancer, respectively), a friend of my dad’s who was like an uncle to me and knew me my whole life (cancer), and Chris Cornell of Soundgarden had just been found dead, from suicide. The world was losing good people. But drinking a drink each in honor of people is a good way to get too drunk too quickly, and once I start drinking it’s a hard thing to wind down and turn off, like a machine with a faulty off switch. I explored Gainesville, walking around and drinking all the way, ending up at an intimate music venue where I saw a bunch of excellent prog-rock bands for $5. Things get fuzzier from there. I remember walking back to my motel room and eating kim chi with a switchblade before falling asleep. 

The Gainesville Post Office, where Harry must've sent off many works to New York City publishers.

I woke up on Sunday morning with a sense of anxiety I always get on that day for some reason, coupled with a manageable hangover and more anxiety from the heavy drinking. I missed my girlfriend and cats. I missed my children (one of the reasons I liked Crews so much is he tragically lost a child to a drowning accident and I lost two children not to death but to an ugly and traumatic custody battle). Intense, humid heat made me feel overly emotional and I had a heat rash in my armpit that hurt. But I put on some sandals and walked the relatively short distance to Crews’ house. 

 

Harry Crews' driveway, which was such a powerful experience for me it felt like a sacred space I had to flee from. Floridian heat is an animal all its own and I had enough salt in my hat to season a meal.


Seeing where he lived a good portion of his life and wrote at was an emotional experience. There was a Beware of the Dog sign, but the gate was open and I could’ve just walked down the driveway to the house. I didn’t know who lived there now, if the house stayed in Harry’s family or had new residents. I’d read so much and done countless hours of research that it felt exhilarating to be at what felt like a near-sacred location. My life was peppered with reading Crews stories at various points and I’d read almost all of his prolific body of work. When I lived in California it seemed like Gainesville was far away and a place I might never get to, but I was here. I felt myself getting weepy and like I couldn’t stay anywhere near this location for long, as if its power was so great that I had to get away from it. There’s a scene in Cormac McCarthy’s novel The Road where a man living in a terrifying and bleak post-apocalyptic world finds a hidden sextant like sailors used in the old days. It is such an undamaged, beautiful object to him from an earlier, pre-apocalyptic time, and so unexpected in such a ravaged and depleted world that he does not take it, but reverently and gently places it back where he found it. I felt like that at Crews’ house. So I walked back to my motel and felt blisters forming on both feet from the sandals, trying not to cry for every and no reason as the Spanish moss that is everywhere in Gainesville hung like tinsel on a dying Christmas tree from the tree branches. 

I've met author Dave Eggers and know he's an intensely private guy (like many authors) -- Harry gave his home address (!) in his novel The Hawk is Dying.

At the motel I sat in the gloom and thought about my life, where it was going and how relatively hard it was. I had moved to Atlanta the summer prior and had been unable, month after month, to find work, despite going on countless job interviews. I was like the last person picked for a sports team, over and over again, and fell into the pattern of being a finalist for positions, but always rejected. It was beginning to take a toll on my psyche, because we are social animals and need not only money but an identity, a way to contribute to society, and a sense of belonging. I was like the drifter in Crews’ karate novel. 


I lay on the bed and turned on the tv and the channel it happened to be on was a documentary about a rural impoverished village in Africa. A young girl had no friends in the village and clung to a white plastic naked doll. She had to get water each day from a well. I only watched a few seconds before thinking of my own estranged daughter, and thinking how hard life was, this African girl’s in her way and mine in my way, and I started weeping. I was also thinking about a news report I’d heard about a whale beaching itself and dying because its stomach was full of plastic shopping bags and it had starved to death. The world, the ocean was getting destroyed and I felt empathy for species going extinct and whales eating plastic and little girls with no friends in impoverished villages. I’d picked up a local Gainesville newspaper earlier and saw the headline LOCAL MAN SHOT IN THE FACE. The funeral I was going to up north was for an impoverished man who had died alone in his home in rural New Hampshire and hadn’t been found for two weeks. The world just seemed a very depressing and hostile place. But I got the tears out and meditated, trying, like the drifter in Crews’ karate novel, to tap into an inner place of resilience and equanimity. I blew cold air on my painful armpit rash.

When you are going through hell, Churchill said, keep going. I think this is something found in Crews’ work as well, and my mom had noticed about me early on that I was sensitive, but also strong. The girlfriend was worried about me because I was traveling alone. Worried about me getting too drunk, being victimized, doing something crazy or stupid. She knew I walked on the edge, drawn to fantastic dark places. Traveled by Greyhound with ex-cons and people in trouble, stayed in humble lodgings, walked through neighborhoods others wouldn’t go in. But I was okay. Alive. In another McCarthy tale, No Country for Old Men, a man is alone and wounded badly and has the calmly sociopathic Anton Chigurh on his tail. I wasn’t wounded and I didn’t have Anton Chigurgh after me. Harry Crews tried to kill himself once with a hunting knife and lied about it after recovering in the hospital, saying he got in a knife fight. But he ended up dying of natural causes, and he had a challenging life at times. Pema Chodron once said that we are continually taken to the brink of annihilation so that we can see and remember how resilient we are. This wasn’t rock bottom for me, because rock bottom is infinite and I knew I had to keep perspective. There were little girls in the world with no friends and only a dirty plastic doll to cling to. I had a life others wanted. I was just having a spell of the black moodies, that little pairing of anxiety and depression that can be a killer, but can also be managed. I needed to get in the moment, be fully here, fully present. I needed to be a warrior, not a worrier. Humans are so funny: we get what we desire and then figure out ways to feel unhappy. Maybe I needed to suck the glop out of a raw egg, wash it down with bourbon and Louisiana hot sauce. Harry Crews did that and said it made him ready to eat nails. Or maybe I just needed to make friends with the sense of loneliness and ennui I had. Go to a punk show. Get bit by a water moccasin, wrassle an alligator. Something. 

University of Florida, Gainesville. Lovely, massive campus with a lake in the middle and gators in the lake. Harry taught Creative Writing for years. He was the first person in his family to graduate high school, and went on to become a university professor. Not too shabby. 


Outside, the sky darkened and rumbled and the rain came and ran like blood. I went outside and watched the lightning, listened to the storm, and saw a rainbow faintly in the sky. A crazy man outside the motel room kept repeating, calmly, articulately, methodically: “Whale friend. Shark friend. Bear friend. Barracuda friend. Pelican friend. Seal friend. Monkey friend. Whale friend. Shark friend. Bear friend…”

Larry Brown, a former Marine and firefighter who taught himself to write, called Harry a “mentor and friend." Harry is like a friend who tells the truth and cuts through all his, and your, bullshit. There’s no other way, Harry might argue.

On the Greyhound out of town I sat next to man who told me it was his son's birthday. I said Happy Birthday and asked how old. "He would have been 4," the man replied. He had a cheaply-done tattoo of the boy's name on his leg. After some plaintive silence I told him about Harry Crews and how Harry had lost a son to a tragic drowning accident, and his excellent essay "Fathers, Sons, Blood." The bus rumbled on. 



Next: Part Two: Feeling happier in life, I visit the Crews Archive, University of Georgia, Athens, 11/11/17. Belly o' the beast. An in-depth look at Crews' unpublished novel Grinder

http://bloodboneandmarrow.com/


Monday, September 18, 2017

Article on solarizing a local elem school

I have an article on page 5 of the current (summer) Energy Efficiency issue of the Georgia Sierran. Check it out. 💡

Dedicated to my friend Zach D, who worked in the solar industry and passed away tragically earlier this year at the age of 43. 

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Unforeseen Consequences: Economic, Racial, Tribal

The great Bernie Sanders, too smart and idealistic to be an American President, impressed me during his run for office in 2016 by talking about unintended consequences of high-level political decisions. This is impressive thinking because it shows a sense of nuance, complexity, depth, and even counter-intuitiveness: American politicians, even ones who apologize for mistakes or admit changing their thinking on an issue, often go into a rhetorical bravado that we claim we want in them -- confidence, vision, direction, strength, etc. In other words, leadership. But many don't cop to seeing how some ideas, however good they look on paper or however in vogue they are at the time, produce unforeseen, unpredictable, and negative consequences. (Bernie, if I recall correctly, was talking about American foreign policy, occupying foreign lands, and the unintended consequences thereof.)

I've been thinking about unintended consequences a lot lately in light of our current political scene, with its horrific emboldening of American white supremacy and the way white liberals are shocked-- and people of color are not. Two things come to mind: unintended consequences of the Clinton-Gore years, and UCs of the Obama-Biden years.

Although the right and even the "alt-right" have demonized the Clintons over the years, with a fair amount of mistreatment, misinformation, and BS, it's fairly apolitical to admit that Bill Clinton's pro-business presidency and his signing of legislation overturning Glass-Steagall is a direct cause of the economic meltdown of 2008. Glass-Steagall had long enforced a division between speculative, obscure, at times manipulative Wall Street machinations, and the more-straightforward economics of Main Street: mortgage lending, home ownership loans, etc. Glass-Steagall existed in the first place because America saw that mixing the two financial worlds could wreak havoc on the economy, but Clinton overturned it, and, while not showing immediate impact, lending to high-risk borrowers in the early 2000s and obscure, illegal Wall Street operations (think of Michael Moore asking random Wall St. people what "derivatives" are in his Capitalism: a Love Story) led to the "economic downturn" or outright Great Depression of 2008 and onward. Sure, the Clintons have long been picked on and targeted by the Right, but overturning Glass-Steagall was risky in the first place.

I am not just being academic and abstract here: at the time it hit, I was working at a junior college in California -- normally insulated from economic ups and downs, bubbles and bursts -- and had my pay cut exactly in half, for the same exact work performed, absolutely unrelated to performance. That stung a bit. I once heard the Clinton-Gore years described as a almost a decade of peace and prosperity -- but what about the UCs down the road?

Another UC is more relevant to the ugliness going on today at contested sites where white supremacists and their resistance are squaring off. The Southern Poverty Law Center published an intriguing report a few years ago showing how membership in hate groups -- largely underground, mind you, as this was pre-Trump -- was fairly steady/predictable during the Dubya years, but rose dramatically during Obama's double term. When I look back on how we arrived at a rise in neo-Nazi and white supremacist hate groups in the US -- emboldened of course by Trump's campaign and presidency -- I can see, with only the hindsight of retrospectiveness, how it didn't happen overnight. This had been brewing for awhile, and it was only when Trump became President that the festering wound exploded open. This is not to say that we shouldn't have had the precedent of a half-nonwhite President or that Obama did anything wrong by being himself, just that the last 9 years have shown that America is still a deeply racist, even bigoted, country, a certain faction of whom detested Obama simply because he was the first nonwhite President. But why are we surprised? America was founded on the genocide of one people and enslavement of other. You can't accomplish that without a sense of supremacy, or at least righteousness.

I was talking with a friend who is a dyed in the wool Democrat about current events. We were talking about how anyone defending Trump at this point is defending his white supremacy. My friend called it racism, but there's a difference between racism -- which I think we all struggle with to some degree -- and the deeply intolerant, violent bigotry going on today.

But what is racism at root? What is bigotry?
Is it not tribalism, with all the good and bad that tribalism imparts?

I've long been a fan of the film Quest for Fire not just because it was a surprisingly accurate portrayal (for the time) of the co-development of different pre-human and human groups in the Stone Age, but because it illustrates something that exists even today: human beings are at different stages of development. In QFF, we saw four distinct groups: totally fur-covered hominids representing a blend of simian and pre-human qualities; cannibalistic pre-humans (with a surprising amount of ginger hair); Neandertals (the film follows this group the closest); and the Cro-Magnons, anatomically modern humans who both laugh at the primitive Neandertals but also show them how to make fire from scratch. The Cro-Mags are the most advanced.


We have to be careful, living today, with two things: thinking that white culture represents the most advanced form of culture that other cultures are striving/struggling to attain (for this is basically white supremacist thinking), but also becoming so bleeding heart that we think Darwinism applies to all of nature except for humans. Am I defending Social Darwinism? In a way, yes, but in a way, no.

It's always amused me when I see a liberal-mobile plastered with stickers on it defending liberal causes while also displaying Darwin's fish. I do agree that, unlike just about everything else in/of nature, humanity has some control over how it fashions the (socio-economic) game of survival, and we can't be so cold-hearted as to see people struggling in this game while shrugging our shoulders and saying "well, that's just nature, nature's rough." Because often who struggles is people of color and people of disadvantage, be it historical or current. (Yes, I know, there are poor whites, disadvantaged whites, poor Jews, etc.)

Also, while we've designated "first" worlds and "third" worlds and "developing" worlds and ways of forming a hierarchical human society -- education, health, status, and monetary power are key indicators/divisors -- we need to remember that, just like in QFF, the most advanced tribe has its problems, the lesser-advanced tribes have their strengths, and feelings/perceptions of superiority and inferiority can arise. The 1990s and onward saw the rise of Political Correctness and gains made by nonwhite cultures, tribes if you will, and with the election of Trump in 2016 we saw a hostile and significant pushback to these gains.

So it's like Mr. Byrne said: Same as it ever was.
Tribes at different stages of development, with much hostility betwixt them. Where's Rodney King when you need him?
Poor John Sayles: his films have been stolen -- er, borrowed from -- twice: Return of the Secaucus Seven became the baby boomer film The Big Chill, and his Brother from Another Planet was a film dealing with racism-vis-a-vis-sci-fi long before District 9

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Season of the Wall Street Witch

Halloween 3: Season of the Witch is an orphan film in the franchise, and there are a lotta films in the franchise. Halloween (1) filmmaker John Carpenter originally envisioned the Halloween series as going in different directions with each film, rather than turning into a franchised series about the killer from the first film, Michael Myers/The Shape. However, audience popularity and ticket sales (and to some extent film critics) tend to rule the day, so when H3 didn't do so well at the box office and fans were left waiting for when Michael Myers was going to appear -- and never does -- in the film, H3 was left as a one-timer while the series got back on track with ol' unstoppable MM returning in part 4.


H3 gained a cult following and presages a direction Carpenter would go in with some of his later films, moving from the horror genre of a single killer/slasher to films dealing with larger societal terrors, such as They Live (1988) and Escape from New York (1981). The former deals with a society-wide conspiracy unearthed by Rowdy Roddy Piper, the latter's a dystopic tale of a police state who deal with high crime by turning the entire island of Manhattan into one big open-air prison. H3 is interesting because it gives hints of this later-developed type of horror from Carpenter: it concerns a sinister toymaker trying to revive the ancient ritual of Samhain by selling time-bomb masks -- a pumpkinhead, skull, and witch -- that kill the wearer when a pumpkin flashes on tv in a specially-made commercial from the toymaker that the children will tune into, which we assume would lead to all kinds of global panic and destruction on Halloween. Perhaps like many people who lived thru that time -- the 1980s -- Carpenter channeled nuclear fears into films about catastrophic societal upheaval via the backdoor rather than going in the front. Many of his films, despite their differences, share the theme of a kind of unraveling of society.

H3: SOTW does not have a titular witch to speak of except for the one mask variety, so it's a bit misleading, however cool-sounding that title is. It's also a pretty hokey story: an eccentric, wealthy toymaker steals a Stonehenge stone (!), mines it for its magical evil, then puts a little of the magic evil in each mask as the conduit to let evil invade the mask-wearer. I mean, come on. It's a big-budget movie with real actors and decent cinematography etc. etc. etc., but it has a very low-rent plot.

So what makes it worth one's time? Namely, what it reveals via metaphor. While not as brilliantly subversive as They Live, there is a thread running through H3 that's critical of 1980s materialism (the protagonist's children prefer the name-brand, oft-advertised masks over some competitor ones dad brings home), all-powerful corporations ("Silver Shamrock" in the film), and the way television bombards us with the same, simple message over and over. "This commercial never stops!" says Dr. Challis, played by 1980s horror-film-guy Tom Atkins. At one point, the jingle even overrides a public safety announcement, which could be read as capitalism taking precedence over, well, public safety. Safety first! Er, capitalism first!

Dr. Challis and his love interest spend most of the movie trying to figure out what Silver Shamrock's titan of business CEO, Conal Cochran, is up to. The small Humboldt County town of Loleta was used for the location of the fictional factory, a "factory town" whose inhabits have to abide a strict curfew, find themselves watched by security cameras -- prefiguring the rise of surveillance in the United States, now commonplace -- and deal with automaton bodyguard-businessmen who work for Cochran and enforce his secrecy and agenda, to the death. It's hard to tell if the filmmaker(s) (not really John Carpenter, who only helped produce and write some of the film) were trying to send a message or just make a horror film in a then-new franchise; I don't want to read too much into H3, whereas Carpenter has blatantly said that They Live is really about "yuppies and unrestrained capitalism." (What does restrained capitalism look like?) But we certainly get some images that signify a subversive spirit in the film. There's leisure suit-clad Buddy, whose bratty family is on vacation to Loleta while Buddy is at the factory for a tour, since he's the number one Silver Shamrock mask salesman in the country. There's the town drunk, who in a strange scene staggers into his little makeshift dwelling in a junkyard and makes a sandwich with cheese-in-a-can (remember the 80s film The Incredible Shrinking Woman's spray-cheese scene?). There's Cochran himself, who we learn was that kind of traveling carnival snake oil-guy who struck it rich with Halloween supplies and cheap amusements, including the "dead dwarf, soft chainsaw, and sticky TP." Cochran seems to have Samhain wrong, describing it as a seasonal time of human sacrifice (at Stonehenge), where the "hills ran red with the blood of animals and children." From my research, it was a pagan ritual in the Fall in preparation for winter, involving slaughtering animals for winter food, but no children that I know of.

Unlike They Live, I just don't get the sense that H3 was/is social commentary couched in horror/scifi fare, predating the work of Neil Blomkamp's District 9 and Elysium. It perhaps dabbled in a bit of criticism of America, while mainly focusing on its plot. But its irony is that its strongest criticism may be its symbolism warning people of becoming couch potatoes and slaves to the commercials of corporations, while counting on that same medium to show its own trailer and one day appear therein (back in the day before Video on Demand/streaming, it was a big deal when theatrical movies appeared on tv). Kinda like Rage Against the Machine having a good message, but spreading that message via being on a major record label. (RATM's demo tape had an actual match taped to its cover depicting financials from the Wall Street section of newspapers, but I suspect their own major label was publicly traded on the Stock Market.) The robot businessmen assassins could be easily read as unthinking/unfeeling slaves to the corporations that employ (program) them. The film has an ambiguous ending where we aren't quite sure if Our Hero, Dr. Challis (with his functional alcoholism, smoking, womanizing, and sweet mustache) has saved the day or not, kind of like the spinning top at the end of Inception. We don't find out, because by Halloween 4 it was back to the slasher pic. H3 hints that Dr. Challis did not save the day, thus the triumph of the destructive corporation.


Though seven years "late," I recently watched the comedy film The Other Guys (2010), made a couple years after the mortgage/Wall Street speculation economic meltdown. It's about two underdog cops who uncover a massive white-collar crime involving Wall Street and their very own police pension fund. It's actually a pretty subversive movie, but it too goes in via the back door: first and foremost it's a cop-buddy comedy, with crude and surreal moments of humor. It, like H3, shows that the little guy -- well, a doctor in H3 or cops in TOG -- can take on large and powerful parts of society, and triumph, or at least make a dent. (Or can they?)

The villain in TOG is Ershon, first seen speaking at an event for "The Center for American Capitalism" (in reality, thinktanks aren't usually that overt) and later implicated in dubious Wall Street transactions involving foreign countries (Nigeria, Chechnya). In an interesting scene where he reveals he keeps a secret NYC apartment "for prostitutes and parents' visits," Ershon hears himself put those two camps in the same sentence and tells the two cops (Will Ferrell, Mark Wahlberg) "but not at the same time, that'd be wrong." This reveals a dynamic that Zizek talks about in his recent critique of capitalism, Trouble in Paradise, namely that we exist in a culture that largely condemns small-crime acts by individuals, but not large-scale "obscure financial transactions" and manipulations that can nearly bankrupt the entire economy or at least cause major financial havoc leading to bailouts.

Ershon has an instant and strong moral compass about not mixing prostitutes and (his) parents, but he has no problem for most of the film doing illegal acts with financial manipulations that can impact millions of people negatively. In one background moment of the film, an Asian tourist flashes the peace sign while standing in front of the metal bull near Wall Street, showing not only ideological confusion but that Wall Street is okay, whereas she'd never take a picture with a small-time criminal who robbed her, and flash the ol' peace sign. If Wall Street robs people, it's part of capitalism, but if someone mugs you, it's a crime. To the film's credit, they show this, with repeated messages that the police stories that make the news are for relatively small amounts of criminal actions, be it an opening destructive chase scene over a small amount of marijuana, or a diamond heist later in the film that comes in under $100,000. While these stories make the news, the real crime is happening on Wall Street.

Interestingly, Ferrell and Wahlberg's captain could be seen as one of the true bad guys: he really doesn't care if Ershon is brought to justice -- he's more concerned with media coverage, a DA on his back, and his own personal life (including his bisexual son at NYU and his second job at Bed Bath and Beyond). Deep down he wants his staff to bust white-collar crime, but he knows it's messy, risky, and disruptive. His ambivalence is truly scary. The other bad guy (beyond the obvious Ershon and his people) is the guy who merely presses buttons, authorizing financial transactions -- he even asks at one point whether or not to put a criminal transaction through and would obviously do whatever someone tells him to do, either way. It is not so much the obvious bad guys in the film who are bad, but the apathetic and ambivalent people in power, police captains and Wall Street stock-jockeys/bankers.

Ershon repeatedly throws the cops off his tail by distracting and entertaining them (with show and sports tickets), until the cops realize the ploy and refuse to be distracted anymore. Very symbolic of people in a so-called democracy being distracted by entertainment and "trickle-down" gifts they get from higher up the pyramid, keeping them placated. Even one of the cops, Terry Hoitz (Wahlberg), though excited by the prospect of busting the white-collar crime ring, gets demoted to being a traffic cop and begins to enjoy the simplicity of his small world: he doesn't have to take on Wall Street, just direct traffic. The latter's a lot easier than the former. But this is an optimistic, big studio movie, so in the end the good guys win, and while the credits are rolling, there are infographics about Ponzi schemes, Wall Street misdeeds, and troubling economic disparities and practices in the ol' USA. Ultimately, the movie gives the message that America has a check and balance system, the cops are good and trustworthy, and crime of any kind -- petty, white collar -- will be dealt with. If only this were the case. Zizek is fond of quoting Brecht: "What is the robbing of a bank compared to the founding of one?" The bank in question in the film is called Endemic Bank, which didn't strike me as coincidental: risky Wall Street shenanigans are prevalent, and the film also ends with a nod to how difficult it'd be to bust/take down Goldman Sachs.

I first found out about TOG from a punk band called Dirty Mike & the Boys (a direct reference to a homosexual hobo group in the film). I wasn't quite sure at the time why they not only sampled audio from the film on their but went so far as to name themselves after it; once I saw the political nature of the film, I got it. DM & the Bs wear their DRI influence on their sleeve, and DRI were/are an extremely political band.

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

On the Mentors, a banned band

Punk culture in general has long thought of itself as a place where the unwelcome are welcome, where outsiders, misfits, nonconformists, and failures can find a community, a home. Because of this, punk sometimes catches things in its wide net that go against what is thought of as punk itself. Here we have to be careful, because although punk is often thought of as lefty, rebellious, nonconformist, even unAmerican (whatever that means), etc., it has some interesting players: a pro-Republican member of punk legend The Misfits, Darby Crash of The Germs advocating for fascism as the best means of social order, controversial anti-homosexuality in some of the music of bad brains, the singer of Fang strangling his girlfriend to death, and, ah... The Mentors.

 
An interesting meta-level Mentors logo, from their Facebook page, in which they appropriate another punk band's (Dirty Rotten Imbeciles) logo for their own

The Mentors formed in the late 1970s -- as the feminist movement, after seeing civil rights movements before it and the social protests and upheavals of the 1960s, began to voice their own discontents -- and certainly are, without question, a punk band with street cred. They have done extensive touring and survived the test of time, even after losing their leader, Eldon Hoke (aka El Duce) in a bizarre accident in which he walked across some railroad tracks to greet fans, got his foot stuck in the tracks, and was struck and killed by a train.*

They have weathered controversy and even government harassment/scrutiny during the Parent Music Resource Center trials of the 1980s; they also very openly invite controversy. And, perhaps most evocatively and disturbingly, they play what they call (here's a two-word Trump-esque zinger) "rape rock," in which they make music and create an aesthetic about the denigration and objectifying of women.

Mentors-Nirvana connection

When rock journalists posit that much of Pacific Northwest grunge bands were rooted in feminism (even all-male bands) rather than the "pale and male" 2nd wave of American hardcore who often -- unintentionally, I hope -- marginalized women and people of color, I'd have to slightly disagree. The Mentors are from Seattle, for one, and are connected to much punk rock/rock in general, like the underbelly of a more "wholesome" or well-known, mainstream scene. There is even a weird Mentors-Nirvana connection that you can explore on yr own, ripe with a conspiracy theory that El Duce was asked by Courtney Love to kill Kurt Cobain for $10,000. (I suspect it's conspiracy theory BS, but, interestingly, El Duce passed a lie detector test when asked about his claim, if we assume lie detector tests are reliable. Which they aren't.) If Nirvana was Establishment Grunge, the Mentors (or at least El Duce) was the Mafia. The two are natural partners.

I first remember learning about the Mentors when a friend in high school showed me an album. 3 white dudes in black executioner hoods, a general vibe of both misogyny, parody, and an obvious love of the (dominated, sexually objectified) female form (thus an anti-gay sentiment, as well). A certain sleaziness I recognized from growing up in the era of Grindhouse cinema. The executioner hoods were intriguing because they certainly, when worn by white people, bring to mind the KKK, but the hoods were black, and executioner hoods pre-date the Klan.**

So what have we got? 1980s hair-farmer band groupies at the altar of the Mentors. Note how it's just "mentors", not unlike (the) melvins, the latter whom were probably influenced by the former. Also note the "beef curtain" vinyl. 

"Rape rock" 
 
I've never been real into the Mentors, although I appreciate that they have exercised their 1st Amendment Rights (use 'em or lose 'em, folks), stirred the pot without running away from it, stuck to their guns, and served as the dark side to punk's more noble side. (The whole yin-yang thang....) They exist in that universe that's home to GG Allin and the Murder Junkies, where sleaze and drugs and white trash and deviant sex and violence and punk music all blend. It's not my favorite place, but it is interesting. I'm not real crazy about any thing or any one who seriously -- without complexity, irony, parody, or intelligence -- advocates rape. Because although I believe in humor and I believe in art being important humanistic forms of dealing with taboo topics, rape is far too common in our culture, and does incredible psychological damage.

We can all throw the term "anti" around
 
The Mentors are currently on an "Anti-Antifa Tour" (antifa = antifascism, often associated with violent Black Bloc techniques), and I think there's room in this world for us all. The Left often takes itself far too seriously (the South Park episode where Prius drivers smell their own farts, satisfyingly), so I do appreciate an "anti" movement to something that's already "anti-." It's clever. It makes people think.


Gilman Street in Berkeley is a legendary punk venue -- I lived in Oakland for years, but never somehow went -- but they tend to ban things that don't fit with their beliefs, including Green Day (?!). Unsurprisingly, Gilman St. banned the Mentors, but it did warm my heart that my old hangout, Eli's Mile High Club in a frankly sketchy part of Oakland***, was willing to host them. 
Not sure if I'm getting more conservative as I age, but I'm not so sure the Mentors defending their rape rock, in an era of Trumpian pussy-grabbing, rape culture, and white male-emboldening, is the most ethical or strategic move. (I also have reservations about Eli Roth remaking white vigilantism movie Death Wish. Come on, Mr. Roth: social responsibility!) But ultimately I am a defender of the 1st Amendment over pretty much anything/everything, and as I said I like when liberal taboos are challenged, especially if there is a complexity to the stew involving parody, theatrics, and button-pushing, which I suspect there is with the Mentors.

I am troubled by the Mentors posting a fan letter they got from a 13-year old male fan who hand-wrote (in bad handwriting, natch) to them saying "rape rock is where it's at." Does an average 13-year old know the nuance of parody, theatrics, and shit-stirring over what is explicit and face value? Then again, I wasn't but 16 or so when I first encountered the Mentors, but I'd been raised exposed to controversial things by parents who believed in free-range parenting and trusted my maturity level (perhaps over-trusting it at times, but there are worse flaws to have). As filmmaker Scott Derrickson said, it's better to have youth experience adult/edgy things and then have a thoughtful conversation about what they experienced, rather than banning things, creating taboos, and sheltering/mollycoddling. One close look at the Millennial Generation and you can see the effects of some very questionable parenting. They've just been too sheltered.

Hell, we live in a time when the President of the Fucking United States of America was caught talking like a frat-boy rapist about women. Slavoj Zizek might argue that there is an honesty, however repulsive, in Trump that's lacking in a corporate Democrat like Hillary Clinton, but it's been sad seeing, post-election, how people on the street have been emboldened in their backlash racism and sexism against vulnerable peoples.

Conclusion 

I guess "inna final analysis" I have to side with Frank Zappa, who was read Mentors lyrics during the PMRC trials and found the whole thing rather farcical and a bit creepy -- creepy in what the government was doing, not the Mentors. A wide-net thing like punk, in a free market society like capitalism offers, is going to turn up fish like the Mentors. You don't have to like them. You don't have to listen to them. You don't have to agree with them. You don't have to worship at the Church of El Duce (a real thing) or even go once. But it is our fringe-dwellers, our boundary-pushers, our controversynauts, who we need to both listen to, defend, and engage in healthy discussion -- and disagreement -- with.
Do I think women should be picked up, sexually used/abused, then "dropped off at Jack in the Box," as the Mentors believe (or are playing a role and saying they believe)? Of course not. But as Zizek noted, there is something fishy and duplicitous about Hillary Clinton -- he likened her being a "progressive" to Lehmen Bros or Goldman-Sachs sponsoring Occupy Wall Street -- and with Trump, or the Mentors, however revolting: WYSIWYG. I'd rather have a guy wear a swastika tattoo on his face and be upfront about it, than learn that a captain of industry or someone with immense political/institutional power is secretly a raging racist or misogynist. I can protect the women in my life from those who act openly, like the Mentors; I'm more worried about the frat-boys who appear on the outside to be decent and wholesome but are internally far more sinister.

Is it the most socially responsible what the Mentors do? No. Is it inevitable? Perhaps. If they don't do it, will someone else? Probably. Are the Mentors hiding behind the First Amendment? No, I think they're utilizing it; that's what it's there for. Do someone like the Mentors strengthen the First Amendment? Ultimately, yes.



* This story comes from Ministry's Al Jourgensen, who strikes me as an honest guy, but who also has no memory of recording certain Ministry albums due to drug abuse/addiction; the official cause of El Duce's death is the weird "misadventure."

** In doing some research, apparently the well-known image of the hooded executioner is largely a myth; actual executioners throughout history did not wear hoods.

*** I once walked home after a show at Eli's and was offered both sex from a hooker and crack from a dealer on the same block. I politely refused both. Eli's started as a small club where Blacks from the South who came to the Bay Area to help build ships for the war (WW2) effort could hear Blues and other traditionally-African-American musicians play. Over the years it mutated into a punk/metal/alternative club with a different crowd.

Some better than others

Saturday, July 29, 2017

On Debt and the American Child Support System

If you didn't get around to reading David Graeber's Debt: the First 5000 Years (Melville House, 2011) for whatever reason, there's a truncated summation in another book Melville House published, Slavoj Zizek's Trouble in Paradise: from the End of History to the End of Capitalism (Brooklyn: Melville House, 2014). When I say 'truncated summation' I mean Zizek doesn't reference Graeber directly (at least not in what I'm writing about), but does a pretty good job in a chapter (of Zizek's) called "Being-Toward-Debt as a Way of Life."


Zizek's first couple chapters in Trouble in Paradise are to do what he calls a diagnosis and then cardiognosis of capitalism -- diagnosis is straightforward, but by cardiognosis he means 'knowledge of the heart,' ie let's really get into the heart of global capitalism, and let's especially find out why it's such a difficult ideology to overturn or replace. (I'm mid-read through the cardiognosis section and looking forward especially to answers to the latter question.)

Some of his writing in the section on debt was like he was writing about the general American child support system without writing about the child support system. Granted, I'm only really empirically familiar with this system as it exists in California and to some extent other states. Zizek writes:

Look at how Europe is dealing with the Greek [economic] crisis: putting pressure on Greece to repay debts, but at the same time ruining its economy through imposed austerity measures and thereby ensuring the Greek debt will never be repaid. (p. 46)

One of the tactics child support collection agents use is to intercept any monies a parent owes in arrears (legal language for debt or being behind on payment) through the mechanism of the State itself and anything the State has a dealing in (lottery winnings, tax refunds, cashing out a state-funded retirement early, etc). Another tactic is to punish so-called deadbeat dads (or deadbeat moms) by colluding with the DMV to render a driver's license invalid. This move is especially reminiscent of the Zizek quote above, because, as any working stiff knows, one of the best ways to not only provide right-to-work documentation, but also to be more attractive to employers in a competition-based society (ie capitalism), is to have a valid driver's license. (Not to mention jobs, such as driving, for which it's a must.) You can see the connection: child support wants their money, but in a rather Kafkaesque maneuver, they themselves largely sabotage this by their punitive actions.

So let me don my critical thinking hat with its ideals of removing bias, examining facts and premises leading to conclusions, and being smart about complex, sticky issues. I'll have some sympathy for the devil, in that one can see child support's hamfisted actions as acts of desperation: in other words, they must realize it's counter-productive to seize someone's license who owes money (the debt being the payor's provable fault, or something outside their control), but what else can they do? (Actually, quite a few things.) Judges who court-order child support stress that it is paramount: in other words, all other debts, bills, payments, etc come after, and only after, the child has received the support through the liaison of the parent receiving support. This makes sense in cases where a child either eats or doesn't eat based on counting on the support received, but it again becomes stickier and often more Kafkaesque when the parent paying support is poorer, sometimes significantly so, than the one receiving it.

Child support agencies basically function as a government authority who don't seem too compassionate when workers paying child support (CS) encounter layoff (through no fault of their own), economic downturns, personal challenges, location moves, etc, etc. This is ironic, because government, even in capitalism, is deeply entwined with the job market: regulates it, produces reports about it, does bail-outs (at least of Big Auto and Big Banks). What CS can do is make a modification to a court-order if the child has greater economic needs or the payor has a change in income/expenses. But this modification process is not speedy (because it's government) nor guaranteed, as it can be argued in a court (and here we get into stickiness again by considering: which parent has the better/fancier/more aggressive lawyer?). CS agencies basically take a "find a job, you bum, there's a mouth to feed" approach, whether that mouth is truly in need or if the CS goes toward other things (such as for the receiving parent). CS is not monitored, like WIC (Women, Infants, Children) is (money to buy specific groceries the government can issue to the eligible), as far as what a receiving parent does with the CS money. There's just no oversight that I'm aware of, but mothers receiving WIC can only use the money to buy specific things decided on by the government.

Consider this:

...when we can no longer rely on long-term employment and are compelled to search for a new precarious job every couple of years or maybe even every couple of weeks, we are told that we are given the opportunity to re-invent ourselves and discover our unexpected creative potential... (Zizek, p. 68)

Zizek is talking about the one-two combination move that capitalism uses: it creates "precarious" economic conditions for the worker, while then placing the responsibility on the worker to accept and even embrace those conditions, lest there is something fundamentally wrong with the worker. I recently saw a statistic, which I question, that 86% of child support payors in a certain part of California paid their court-ordered CS amount in 2016. (For the most part, I was part of that 86%, if that number can be trusted.)

But what of the 14% (or more, I suspect)? In his fauxbo memoir, Riding Toward Everywhere, William T. Vollmann becomes a fake hobo and illegally rides trains the way people did (still do) in the golden age of trainhopping. He meets a lot of interesting characters, naturally. One of them I recall vividly: an older gentleman who was only a hobo because he couldn't swing his CS payments of $750/month (!). He dropped out of society and hit the rails, but this seems like a risk (in addition to payors committing suicide over financial problems) CS agencies are willing to take, and take, even if it means that -- often by their own punitive actions -- they make it harder for a worker to meet their obligation. This gives credence to Zizek's argument in the debt section that debt is really about something else: namely, social control and obedience. And if social control and obedience are by-products of the debt system, then surely it can't be denied they play a large role.


News reports of now-deceased rapper Ol' Dirty Bastard still retaining his public benefits card -- and using it! -- while making enough money rapping to not require public benefits linger in the mind, and infuriate those against a welfare state. I think what ODB did was wrong, but also illustrates a specific dynamic in the poor Black community and their relation to the white world (even the white welfare-granting world) that demands deeper exploration and nuance. But if the Trump Era has shown us anything, it's shown us that the right two-word combo can really stick in the craw of John Q. Public and even impact thought and action: we have "Crooked Hillary," "fake news," and other two-word over-simplistic reductions of complex people and issues. "Deadbeat Dad" has a certain Trumpian ring to it, although DDs have been around longer than Trump, and of course there do exist bad fathers out there who intentionally withhold CS money, don't care, etc.

But the good dads, the ones who do all they can to take their (court-ordered) child support seriously, are playing a game they can't win. Increasingly -- and it's not just what/who I read and what echo-chambers I engage in -- from both major American political parties, is the use of the word "rigged." Good ol' Bernie -- a populist who accepts capitalism but aspires to a capitalism-socialism hybrid --
used it to describe a fundamental facet of the American economy. Trump used it to describe an election system that he, ironically, won in. It's like the criticism of bureaucracies that they send people on wild goose chases and often do not talk to or align with one another, even if it's crucial they do so (such as needing a license to get a job to pay child support but child support has invalidated the license).

On a final note, I am aware or try to be aware of counterarguments to my argument, and one of them is this: What about the people who are able to pay their CS consistently while still surviving in and negotiating the pitfalls, the ups and downs, booms and busts, opportunities and crises of a capitalist economy? Well, okay. I knew someone who, when his child turned 18, had met his CS obligation; I remember the day he didn't have to pay anymore and was a slightly freer person. I was happy for him. I was happy for all involved, actually. But just because something is possible doesn't mean it's the norm. And this brings up what life is like today. In the past, Japanese society had lifetime employment with a company: sure, garnish it from my wages, I'll not really miss it and soon get used to it. I can realistically see paying this obligation faithfully because I can realistically see being with this company for a long haul. But stable employment is rapidly becoming a thing of the past, while government thinking (and societal thinking) is slow to catch up, reasoning that (here's that Trumpian oversimplification again): hell, if you're a strong worker and take your obligation seriously, you'll pay that CS and even have money left over for an ice cream cone for yourself, bub. Basically, government takes an Ayn Rand/neocon/Sartrean approach, that we are responsible for our own success and failure in life.

I don't know if it's government's lack of compassion (for the payor) that worries me more or the fact that their coercive ways of punishing parents in debt or behind on their payments often do more harm than good. In the legal world, there are such things as "mitigating factors" that the Defense will try and use to reduce someone's sentence or lessen the severity of their punishment for a crime; the closest thing the CS system has to this is making a modification or arriving at a compromise/payoff deal (for less than the amount fully owed) just in order to get something rather than nothing. This is of course common practice in the world of debt, where there are even levels of debt, from debt that can be realistically recouped to 4th level/"ghost debt" that has passed through so many hands and failed attempts that the company will sell it off for pennies on the dollar. (An outgrowth of the Occupy Movement, the Rolling Jubilee, brilliantly used this last strategy to buy and thus pay off student debt that they bought for a ridiculous fraction of what the total debt was, simply by gathering donations from people.)

Debt is a fascinating and scary thing, but both Graeber and Zizek are keen to point out that it's not an innocent system wherein the ideal is to have zero debt in the world. In fact, Zizek points out that Argentina paid off a debt early to the IMF, and the IMF was pissed because they knew they had less control of Argentina with their debt paid (the ol' "strings attached" when money gets lended). Zizek even links debt to the fundamental workings of Christianity (in Xtianity, a Christian can never fully pay the debt back to Jesus for dying for sins, so the closest a Xtian can do is a lifetime of servitude and obedience to the religion, which creates a mechanism of social control).

It's probably obvious that I know about this stuff because of first-hand experience. I have had tax returns intercepted, my driver's license invalidated, my passport invalidated*, my early-retirement check garnished, and have also successfully met a rather high monthly obligation (not quite the hobo with the $750/month responsibility, but close!) for years and years consistently before falling on hard times due to moving from a severely-gentrified area in search of a lower cost of living and greener pastures. I did not expect trouble finding a job, but that's the unexpected in life for ya.

So what I would say is this: become an antinatalist, use two condoms.... Just kidding! I would say the child support system is in many cases the biggest impediment to itself getting paid by payors. I would say that one common critique of government is that it's inept. A great tangible first step would be removing punitive restrictions when a payor falls behind for whatever reason. (A CS representative I spoke with did the ol' blame-it-on-the-robots when I asked about the absurdity of these punishments, saying they're "automatic actions" that CS workers have no control of when arrears accrue, even though I found out later CS workers do have control over these supposedly automatic actions).

I would say that a deeper critique of government makes a (very good) argument that government does more harm than good, thus is absurd and should be abolished/reduced/transformed. I would say that the invention of debt has been something with far-reaching implications and applications to diverse elements of society, and not for the better. I would say, that with that most precious and fragile of human faculties, imagination, we can find better ways to do things and even create win-win situations so baby gets fed and daddy doesn't end up a hobo. I would say that my responses to child support surveys, in which I say many of the things here, probably get discarded and not taken seriously, as calmly and studiously as I try to make them. I've thought about sending photocopies of the writing of a Graeber or Zizek to government workers, but gov't workers are often more programmed than a computer itself. While real social change often comes from the ground up, people often don't take action unless it comes from above. I am not anti-child support by any means, for it's crucial with struggling families who have innocent children to provide for, but it is a mechanism that merits serious scrutiny and reform.

I would ask that the average American who in any shape or form believes in this capitalist system -- from right-wingers to establishment Democrats -- open themselves up to the fact that we are not always aware how unfree we are and how much systems have control of us. The current Pope described capitalism as a "subtle dictatorship" -- sometimes we can see the dictatorship part clearly, but struggle with its subtlety.

update: Learned recently that child support agencies can/will also suspend hunting and fishing licenses as well as business and professional licenses. The absurdity of the latter should be pretty self-evident if someone is struggling to pay their obligation, but overall it creates a situation in which government has all the power: first it giveth, then it taketh away.


* this one was extremely Kafkaesque and disappointing, because I researched it heavily and from one source was eligible for my passport, but was ultimately rejected for owing back-money according to another source: this is that problem with dysfunctional, confusing bureaucracies, who ultimately have the power/final say.


Friday, July 28, 2017

On an age-old question (is life really better now than it was?)

One of the interesting things about being alive, at least to me, is, no matter where one finds oneself in history, to think about the question of how much better or worse off one is in contrast to the past or probable future.

Slavoj Zizek engages in this in his recent book Trouble in Paradise: from the End of History to the End of Capitalism (Brooklyn: Melville House, 2014). He cites Matt Ridley's The Rational Optimist: How Prosperity Evolves (NY: Harper, 2011), which gives a very sunny account of life today:


[we are far better off than our] Stone Age ancestors. The availability of almost everything a person could want or need has been going erratically upwards for 10,000 years and has rapidly accelerated over the last 200 years: calories; vitamins; clean water; machines; privacy; the means to travel faster than we can run, and the ability....  [etc. etc.]


Zizek is kind with Ridley and, while taking issue with the notion that we're better off today, grants that Ridley is overall correct in his listing of specific improvements humanity has enjoyed as history has progressed.

One thing that jumped out to me as idiotic in Ridley's assessment is the increase in privacy. Sure, we may have private bathrooms we can access and apps that at the push of a button allow food to be delivered to the privacy and comfort of our homes rather than going down to the alehouse for some mutton and homebrew, but we live in an age of unprecedented surveillance. A few minutes at a website like eff.org or a similar agency will show that as technology has rapidly increased and evolved in the last, say, 30 years, so have abusive ways in which big tech and government have colluded to spy on largely innocent technology users. Some tech companies more than others have resisted government demands for information about their users -- notably, Apple and Yahoo -- but disturbing stories continually emerge: the government used the Geek Squad to gain information without a warrant (or even reasonable suspicion) when people took computers in for repair; the TSA/Customs apparatus demanded social media passwords from international travelers at airports; net neutrality has been threatened for years and the current FCC Chairman is formerly a lawyer for communications giant Verizon; I could go on and on but would instead refer you to EFF or Fight for the Future for details. Not to mention the self-disclosure and oversharing people online take part in! A heavily-surveilled nation lets its own citizens do a lot of the spying and keeping tabs on each other....

In the physical world, there has also been the rise of security cameras, baby monitors*, and even the way technology has changed human behavior in that, when an incident happens in society, many people's first action is to film it with their smartphone (rather than, say, help a victim of crime). There is the rise of drones attached with cameras. Cyber-bullying. Revenge porn. The USPS photographing mail to alert recipients what mail is on the way-- but what is happening to these photos, and who is seeing them? Spying has always been an industry but this industry has exploded with the advent of technology in the late 20th century and early 21st century. Ridley's claim is absurd.

I would also argue that access to clean water has of course improved as sanitation and other improvements have occurred, but it's funny that Ridley is so optimistic, when the 21st Century is predicted to be one of significant resource wars**, water being a key resource to be battled over.

If we look at conditions in the Dark Ages, brought about by the fall of Rome around 500 AD and lasting more than 1,000 years, of course we for the most part have better lives than "back then." (Keep in mind I am applying a utilitarian assumption here.) Even the chapters on the Black Plague in Jerry Langton's book Rat: How the World's Most Notorious Rodent Clawed Its Way to the Top (NY: St. Martin's Press, 2006) show that life is in many ways better, especially in first world nations, where we don't generally have to worry about rats and fleas and bubonic plague wiping out a mind-boggling amount of the population in gruesome ways. People even only 200 years ago used to die of milk sickness. What the hell is milk sickness?! The fact that I don't know shows that I don't have to worry about it, as people in history once did.

So what we find is that we exchange improvements (dying from milk sickness is not a worry these days) for new horrors (the prevalence of government spying and one nation under surveillance). Interestingly, the very first paragraph of William Manchester's influential book on the medieval mind and times,  A World Lit Only By Fire (Boston: Little, Brown, and Company, 1993), gives an overview that could as equally apply to 700 AD as it does today's postmodern, late capitalism times:


After the extant fragments have been fitted together, the portrait which emerges is a melange of incessant warfare***, corruption, lawlessness, obsession with strange myths, and an almost impenetrable mindlessness.


One of the most entertaining and insightful explorations of then vs. now is Russian sci-fi authors the Arkady Brothers' classic Hard to Be a God, in which a future human culture is able to move throughout the universe with relative ease and find an Earth-like planet nearly indistinguishable from Earth itself, who seem to be stuck in their own middle ages, but unable to progress out of them like we did. They send an emissary -- basically, a spy -- into this backwards culture to simply observe, but not make direct impacts on the culture (such as, hey guys, here's how to wash your hands, here's how to make a printing press, etc). The emissary tries his best but becomes so frustrated that he ends up slaughtering the entire village. Two film versions have been made -- a clunky one (with a cameo by Werner Herzog) in 1989 and a better one by Aleksei German in 2013. As good as the latter one is, I would still highly recommend the source novel.


I could say a lot more about this topic, and indeed many books have been written and debates had. In my own time I have witnessed the amping up of the police state (through both Republican and Democratic administrations) in the U.S. after 9/11, and when I look at memoirs like Cotton Joe Eddy's Hobo (2002) and Werner Herzog's Of Walking in Ice (1974) I wonder if these type of open road, on-foot explorations of the world are even possible in a post-9/11 world. (To be fair, Herzog does encounter some police on his mid-70s on-foot journey from Munich to Paris, and I haven't yet finished Hobo.) Serial killers still exist, but with the advent of high technology to track and capture them, the more fashionable (and pragmatic) thing to do is for people to be mass shooters and terrorists who go out in a blaze of glory along with their victims; can you imagine a killer like The Zodiac getting away with he did in this day and age? 

But I think we need to be careful basking in the sunshine of a perceived greatest-overall-prosperity-ever-in-human history mentality. There is still massive income inequality, social injustice, economic injustice, widespread suffering and tragedy, and we are teetering on the brink of converging global crises: overpopulation, global warming, resource wars, mass extinction, environmental pollution and destruction, fiscal instability, war, and, as always, X-factors of things we cannot possibly see coming. In the words of the band Godflesh, it may very well be a "New Dark Ages." 


* This may seem like a petty example, and these monitors have sometimes caught baby sitters doing harm to children, but if you include the movement to make even the dullest of household appliances a "smart" appliance -- thus vulnerable to hacking, spying, and abusive use -- you get an Orwellian situation. Note the recent rise of Amazon's Alexa home robot, who does everything from play songs to dim lights, and who, if asked whether "she" is connected to the CIA, will remain silent.
** We could easily employ a term such as "peak water," just like "peak oil," to describe the tipping point that has been reached wherein water -- or any resource that's been exploited and/or polluted via global capitalism -- is no longer an easily-attained necessity to be taken for granted.
*** I was born during the Vietnam War and have lived through the Cold War, multiple Middle East wars, the ongoing and indefinite (and profitable) War on Terror, as well as goofy things like the War on Drugs. 

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Best movie I've seen in awhile


Damn good movie. 


And on a side note, great to see movies -- and good ones, to boot! -- using the Black Flag font!

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

Failure's official video for "Counterfeit Sky"

Stumbled across this video for the Failure song "Counterfeit Sky," probably the strongest and best song on their (to me) disappointing comeback album, The Heart is a Monster. Unsurprisingly, Failure mine here the "space rock" brand they've cultivated over the years after (rather haphazardly) crafting a kind of spacerock masterpiece back in the 90s, Fantastic Planet. This video shows Failure's obsession with Russian director Andrei Tarkovsky and Polish scifi writer Stanislaw Lem, as it depicts a failed astronaut's descent onto a planet that keeps recreating and looping versions of himself (the basic plot of Lem's Solaris).

I'm not trying to be too hard on Failure: I have to remember that a new generation has discovered and come to love them, and this is good. Life today is about branding. It's just that I saw Failure in a small venue with their original drummer (Robert Gauss) in 1993, promoting their recently-released first album, the Steve Albini-engineered Comfort. The whole space-rock persona was years away. I think Failure may have peaked creatively with their first three albums, which I think are all masterpieces (and yes I'm one of those fans who truly likes the Albini-esque sound of Comfort, as well as the more lushly-produced following albums). I'm glad that they reformed and are finding new fans. And it's a cool, if predictable, video, below. Either way, a good song. Enjoy.

Love this quote from WTV's Poor People

"What a dangerous world this is, speckled with wickednesses whose inexplicability might as well be called supernatural!"

- William T. Vollmann, Poor People (NY: HarperCollins, 2007) 

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

On Chris Cornell's Death: No Need to Blame Others or Cook Up Conspiracy Theories

I was never a huge Soundgarden/Chris Cornell fan. I really like certain Soundgarden songs, but I found Chris' voice a bit abrasive at times (I have this same thing with the Decemberists singer), and while I loved the darkness of the songs, the vocal delivery disappointed me at times. Nonetheless, I was saddened to hear of Chris' suicide recently. But I have this to say: the people blaming Chris' doctors or medications, or the inevitable people who will -- a la Cobain -- cook up conspiracy theories are simply in shock and/or denial, looking for other factors when it's very clear that someone like Chris was crystal clear (via his songs) about his mental state and feelings about the world.

You don't just write songs like "Blow Up the Outside World," "Pretty Noose," "Fell on Black Days," etc to have an affect, be darkly cool, or for style (I mean, people do, but I think Chris was the real deal). These songs come from a very real place, and it's that place that Chris struggled with that killed him. Not a member of the Mentors (paid 10k by Courtney Love) or his taking too much Ativan. I feel for those Chris left behind, but don't let your shock and denial cloud your thinking. Chris killed himself. Not allowing him that fact is a dishonor to him, to his life, his death, his decision. We constantly work to avoid the suffering of the world and the plain, brute shittiness of being alive. We cover it up with smiling people in ads everywhere, with distraction, delusion, denial. (I recently was looking at a magazine in a lobby before a job interview and had to put the thing down in disgust because everyone was smiling -- even the Black people.) The 800-pound gorilla in the room is that life sucks. It just does. It's the only, and I mean only, thing that's real and true.

Now, Chris struggled with addiction and depression, killers both. Of course, there are disorders of the brain and emotions, which can thankfully be battled with (or accepted, medicated, meditated), since the brain is somewhat plastic. I wouldn't want everyone to be like Chris, because he was sensitive and troubled, and his darknesses overtook him. But that's why he stood out, because he was brave enough to speak his truth, which also resonated in a big way with people. But let's cut the shit about blaming others or concocting conspiracy theories. Suicide is suicide and it is arguably a right, something that has always been with humanity and always will.

Rest in peace, Chris. And thank you for the music and honesty.